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CH32P:17:Renounce the missionary plan.

Now, said he, that little space was given to delirium and delusion. I rested my temples on the breast of temptation, and put my neck voluntarily under her yoke of flowers; I tasted her cup. The pillow was burning: there is an asp in the garland: the wine has a bitter taste: her promises are hollowher offers false: I see and know all this. I gazed at him in wonder. It is strange, pursued he, that while I love Rosamond Oliver so wildlywith all the intensity, indeed, of a first passion, the object of which is exquisitely beautiful, graceful, fascinatingI experience at the same time a calm, unwarped consciousness that she would not make me a good wife; that she is not the partner suited to me; that I should discover this within a year after marriage; and that to twelve months rapture would succeed a lifetime of regret. This I know. Strange indeed! I could not help ejaculating. While something in me, he went on, is acutely sensible to her charms, something else is as deeply impressed with her defects: they are such that she could sympathise in nothing I aspired toco-operate in nothing I undertook. Rosamond a sufferer, a labourer, a female apostle? Rosamond a missionarys wife? No! But you need not be a missionary. You might relinquish that scheme.