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CH34P:35:Insist on remaining his sister.

Consent, then, to his demand is possible: but for one itemone dreadful item. It isthat he asks me to be his wife, and has no more of a husbands heart for me than that frowning giant of a rock, down which the stream is foaming in yonder gorge. He prizes me as a soldier would a good weapon; and that is all. Unmarried to him, this would never grieve me; but can I let him complete his calculationscoolly put into practice his plansgo through the wedding ceremony? Can I receive from him the bridal ring, endure all the forms of love (which I doubt not he would scrupulously observe) and know that the spirit was quite absent? Can I bear the consciousness that every endearment he bestows is a sacrifice made on principle? No: such a martyrdom would be monstrous. I will never undergo it. As his sister, I might accompany himnot as his wife: I will tell him so. I looked towards the knoll: there he lay, still as a prostrate column; his face turned to me: his eye beaming watchful and keen. He started to his feet and approached me. I am ready to go to India, if I may go free. Your answer requires a commentary, he said; it is not clear. You have hitherto been my adopted brotherI, your adopted sister: let us continue as such: you and I had better not marry.