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CH37P:11:Hold her closer still.

He replied not: he seemed seriousabstracted; he sighed; he half-opened his lips as if to speak: he closed them again. I felt a little embarrassed. Perhaps I had too rashly over-leaped conventionalities; and he, like St. John, saw impropriety in my inconsiderateness. I had indeed made my proposal from the idea that he wished and would ask me to be his wife: an expectation, not the less certain because unexpressed, had buoyed me up, that he would claim me at once as his own. But no hint to that effect escaping him and his countenance becoming more overcast, I suddenly remembered that I might have been all wrong, and was perhaps playing the fool unwittingly; and I began gently to withdraw myself from his armsbut he eagerly snatched me closer. NonoJane; you must not go. NoI have touched you, heard you, felt the comfort of your presencethe sweetness of your consolation: I cannot give up these joys. I have little left in myselfI must have you. The world may laughmay call me absurd, selfishbut it does not signify. My very soul demands you: it will be satisfied, or it will take deadly vengeance on its frame. Well, sir, I will stay with you: I have said so.